I cannot be the only one...who has written, edited, spell checked, and re-read a blog post only to hover their mouse over the publish button, unable to click and commit to publishing the post. I have gone through this to-publish-or-not-to-publish song and dance with a particular post I wrote recently more than a few times, and I am having a difficult time deciding whether or not to share the story.
I write about my life, the good, the bad, and the ugly parts of it. I try to change the names to protect the innocent (well, their not always so innocent), and I purposely do not give too many details in case anyone's feelings could be affected by something I have written. But taking other people's feeling into account sometimes feels like I am being held back, I can sense a little angel over my shoulder shaking their finger at me to remind me to be nice and careful with other people's emotions, and this is an annoyance. I know my voice of reality can be taken as mean spirited, thus I proceed with caution, and this brings us back to the dilemma concerning the post in question. To publish and risk the chance that the person I am sharing about may come across it and unravel the mystery of whether it is them or not, or to delete the post and let it rest in peace?
Taking my anxiety into consideration I am sure I will continue to hem and haw over this beautifully written example of how a person in my life has an unfortunate personality trait, that just happens to make me want to jump through the nearest emergency exit anytime I see them coming. But I guess for now I will bite my tongue (or keyboard keys) and keep the thoughts to myself (and my laptop). Wish me peaceful resolution in my wavering ability to make a decision about that particular post, until then I will continue my dedication to bringing you the safe topics from my anything but mundane life of motherhood.